Transvestia

a sales job, and was pretty morose. Again I tried "kicking" the habit but as we all know it didn't work. I did find one fierce flame, and sexually had some very satisfying experiences with her, but she was 13 years my senior. Maybe I should have gone ahead and signed up with her, but perhaps it was destined not to be. We are still friends and I see her occasionally. I think someday I may tell her all about Ann. I believe she would understand.

My job progressed surprisingly well and I was offered a promotion and a transfer to another Southern city. I accepted with pride and enthusiasm, and was soon up to my neck in my new sales work. I think this and the above- mentioned affair strengthened my masculine side because I was soon hitting it off beautifully with several young things in the new city. One of them at the office became particularly fond of me and in an off moment we decided to get married.

I did attempt in a stumbling way to tell her before we got married that I was a transvestite and something of what it meant. I'm sure she had never heard of such a person and did not really understand what it was all about.

Differences in education, interests, intelligence, backgrounds, the realization of the mistake I had made, and probably other reasons made me flee the marriage after a few months. I quit his excellent job, turned over my entire savings, home, furnishings, virtually every possession I had to her and left. The flight, the confusion, the many emotions all caused me to go through a terrific depression. I look back on it today and realize that it was a form of mental and psychological breakdown. It resulted in virtual complete unemployment for about 18 months. I drew unemployment checks, worked at dozens of odd jobs such as delivering telephone directories, ushering in a movie, washing cars, etc., etc,. All very mundane and none worthy of a person of 150-plus I.Q., college graduate, and so forth.

While all this was happening I met my present wife, an angel living among men if there ever was one. She often says she doesn't think I love her, but she is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me in my life. I met M. while I was in the final throes of obtaining my

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